Lyrics

I’ll admit sometimes I miss him
Like I suspected I would
It’s not like he was the life of the party
But he was more so than I could ever be
I always envied his relaxed disposition
And his ability to keep conversation
Sometimes it’ feels like a reasonable Question
Would we be better if he was here instead Of me

Yeah, i guess I broke the bad habit
Yeah, I guess I made everyone proud
Suppose i even deserve some praise
Achieved something to celebrate
I shut him out,
Poured him down the drain
Plugged the cork
Left him locked in chains
And even though he fit this world better Than me sometimes
I have to remember his personality wasn’t Actually mine

I can be better
Better than he ever was (was)
I can be better (better)
Without those chemicals in my blood
I can be better
I can be better (better)
He wasn’t even real
Yeah, I’m better
Cause good or bad
At least I can feel
And he was numb

I have days where I’ve worried
That I lost myself, and I’ll never come back
It’s hard to remember that wasn’t normal,
And even if it was, what the hell kind of Normal was that

Yeah, i guess I broke the bad habit
Yeah, I guess I made everyone proud
Suppose i even deserve some praise
Achieved something to celebrate
I shut him out
Poured him down the drain
Plugged the cork
Left him locked in chains
And even though he fit this world better Than me sometimes
I have to remember his personality wasn’t Actually mine.

I can be better
Better than he ever was (was)
I can be better (better)
Without those chemicals in my blood
I can be better
I can be better (better)
He wasn’t even real
Yeah, I’m better
Cause good or bad
At least I can feel
And he was numb

I know somewhere there’s solace
A happier and longer life
Maybe it just got lost, maybe it
Turned left when it should’ve right
But I’ll find it, yeah
I’m gonna find it (find it)

Yeah, i guess I broke the bad habit
Yeah, I guess I made everyone proud
Suppose i even deserve some praise
Achieved something to celebrate
I shut him out
Poured him down the drain
Plugged the cork
Left him locked in chains
And even though he fit this world better Than me sometimes
I have to remember his personality wasn’t Actually mine.

I can be better
Better than he ever was (was)
I can be better (better)
Without those chemicals in my blood
I can be better
I can be better (better)
He wasn’t even real
Yeah, I’m better
Cause good or bad
At least I can feel
And he was numb

I’m not numb anymore
I’m not numb anymore